wat is happening to me?

why nowadays i am so restricted to show my feelings..

wad is bothering me?

why do i feel sour inside but has to put on a smile on my face?

why does e truth always hurt??

and i gotta to know e truth in such a way..

or did i really know e truth?

its so confusing..

wad is happening around me?

did someone put a gun on my head and restrain me from crying??

why cant i cry when i am sad??

now i have to smile no matter it is a joyous or sad event...

"sometimes i wish i could just fly away. and never go home. everytime i see what i recall when i look at you, it kinda rips a part of my heart out. deep down. i just wish.. i grit my teeth and force my tears back down because i know i cant let it overcome me. im nearly at the last straw. my head's thumping really badly now. i feel as if my blood vessles are going to explode. "

why are there so many stuffs with no answers??

who can provide me with the answer?

can i complain??

i cant coz i am the willing one..

can i blame?

i cant coz i am the willing one..

can i cry?

i cant coz i am the willing one..

can i regret?

i cant coz i am the willing one..

i guess it ends.. e choice is pretty obvious now..

wad have i got to say,

nothing..

its just a facade..

at least i experienced it for quite some time.

it feels good.

thanks..

how long will i take to recover??

who should i turn to?

guess there is only 1 person i can truly rely on...

happy birthday to jeremy lim (19th jan) and Amelia (20th jan)!!~