..i am mr. james, welcome to my blog....

there is no such things as True friends..
because they

promise you this or that but in the end they just act blur.
ditch you aside when u need someone to confide.
stab you on the back when you are at your lowest point of life.
easily agitated when you just gave a casual remark?
ask friends to condem you when you made a careless mistake?
leave you out alone when got outings.
helped them when they need but dump you when you needed help.

argh.. dunno la.. lazy to type...

This section below is not bout frens!!

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...

never had this feeling before!!!
jay's songs are sure depressing!!
life is full of DOWNS.. hais...
everytime on e bus back, i got e same feeling..
pass by the place i got e same feeling..
went to the place, i got e same feeling..
whenever i am alone, i got e same feeling..
whenever e night comes, i got e same feeling..
before i sleep, i got e same feeling..
when i woke up, i got e same feeling..
so many things tat will make me have the same feeling..

e feeling of guilt.
e feeling of regret.
e feeling of sadness.
e feeling of remorse.
e feeling of loneliness.
e feeling of stubborness.
e feeling of unhappiness.
e feeling of everything..

its hard..
i tried..
to no avail.

i succeeded.
to my own imagination.

i failed.
to the reality.

i cried.
to myself.

many sleepless nights.
eyebag getting thicker.
every night slept at 4am.
cant force myself to sleep early.
sighs.
tot i will succeed like in e past.
but NO.

frens tot i succeeded.
haHahaHahaHahaHahaHa..
guess i put on a good show..

ignorance is bliss.
argh.. dunno wat the hell i talking la...
do wad do wad do wad...
argh.. i am a idiot.
....
blah blah blah..

(: stepped on your garbage at 1:44 AM